Here I am. Can you see me? Can you hear me? No, that is good. I want to be anonymous. So many men, boys and ladyboys want to know who you are when you are on social media like Grindr, Manhunt, Squirt. ” Do you got a pic, brah?” it drives me crazy. Maybe I am a creature of habit, maybe I am too old for this hook up game. Maybe I am not getting it. I like the days when you could hide in a stall and tap your foot or look for the other dudes shadow going back and forth to know if he is cruising. I like the days where you can hide in the shadows of a park and wait for some man to walk by and tug at his crotch. It did not matter what you looked like for the most part. It was dark, you had your cock out and you were ready and willing to anyone who was ready to get you off.
Now everything has to meet a preconceived checklist. The newest app on the market is in the underground until more and more socially retarded single faggots join and then change the dynamic. Anonymous fucking is dead. You need to see what he looks like, his stats, his into, his time frames, what social circle he may run in to ensure you may be compatible. What is there to be compatible about. It’s just sex. If it isn’t just sex, one of the two are being dishonest with themselves.
So where does this leave me. I am in the cruising market. I am ready to blow a load. I am scared, I am nervous, I am anxious and horny as fuck.
I have made a few connections. I have had my blood work done since, I have told my partner that I have played. I have had some anonymous hookups, I had been to the bathhouse, I have been to the public washroom, I have had someone over at the house.
So where does this leave me. Guilt, shame and wanting more. I have had a really bad cold, I have had a herpes breakout, aka a cold sore, since I was 16yrs old. It is a badge of shame for sure but I kept up with it and put it back in its place.
I have been fortunate enough that my partner has been honest and shared his willingness to jump back into the hookup game. He has been with 4 different guys and one of them 2x.
I joined in on 3 of them where as the others I hid in the closet watching through the closet door crack. It was amazing. I also had the voyeuristic eye to watch him breed a dude who is also undetectable(even though he never said he was nor does he know bf is).
It is hot as hell to watch my boyfriend top. It is equally hot to watch him service hot hung daddies. I also like watching him take a load of cum to the face.
Boyfriend has had one guy breed him and he took his load deep in his ass. This guy knew he was undetectable but made the choice to top him anyway. It was soon hot. The daddy top ever knew I was watching from the closet. I did join in the second time they hooked up.
My boyfriend was in a service mood for sure.
My boyfriend and I took a boy home from Grindr. We met up with him at a local pub and fed him a couple drinks then took him back to the house. This boy claims he is on prep and wants seed. He is a cum hungry pig slut bottom. I hooked up with him once before and knew he was the boy I wanted my boyfriend to be breeding buddies with. So I introduced them and we all slept in the same bed.
However the boy was too drunk to play. Passing in and out of consciousness. He was a bit of a headache actually. I woke up in the middle of the night pretending to sleep as I was listening and watching with one eye my boyfriend trying to breed this slut. But the slut kept on pushing him off saying he was too tired.
Morning came and he and the boyfriend had some hot oral before boyfriend took off to work and then I bred this boys ass twice. Dumping my load hoping he would keep my load in their for the day so Bf could use it as lube later. That never happened.
There is nothing better than having a slut beg for your seed. Begging for it.
So….This threesome boyfriend and I had with the man who knew bfs status. This guy did not know we were boyfriends but just friends, I pretended I was from out of town.
This guy the first time they hooked up lasted all of 2mins inside his ass before he seeded him. So I figured it would be a quick hookup. I was able to eat this daddies ass and breed him before he took a turn on the boyfriend. I came too quickly of course watching boyfriend sucking his hung cock at the same time put me over the edge.
I then took a back seat and watched boyfriend and him fool around. This guy was into kink, he wanted me to eat my seed out of his ass. He wanted to use a sounding tube on his cock, he put on a oxballs cockring on his cock and used some sort of warming cream on his balls as I finger fucked him and boyfriend sucked his cock with the sounding tube down his shaft. It was a hot time. Was a little longer than I anticipated. But fun…
He asked to stick around and have a glass of wine to chat. So we chatted. Making up lies as we went along to make it seem we were just friends. He had said in a Manhunt chat that he wasn’t into group sex with couples so….
Another guy that the boyfriend fucked around with as I watched from the closet was an amazing daddy, fit, muscles, friendly, handsome and hung as fuck, he stayed so fucking hard his veins were popping the entire time they were fooling around.
One thing I have noticed with hung daddies especially those who lie their age is they want more romance than just fucking around. He was all into kissing and taking his time. There was one moment where boyfriend was straddling his chest and fucking his mouth that the daddy shifted him down to his crotch and started to play with boyfriends hole with his raw precummy cock. He poked his knob around his hole wanting to breed him. He was determined to get it in. I was very very anxious and scared that he was going to breed him without knowing boyfriend was undetectable. Boyfriend had condoms ready but the dude never reached for one. Boyfriend rode his rod against his crotch teasing him, watching the precum drip down his shaft before bf crawled off and said,” not tonight”.
Sighs…I am hard as a rock sitting here in the coffee shop reliving this moment. They keep chatting and trying to arrange a second hookup. Boyfriend really wants too but is also hesitant because this daddy has already expressed interest and has verbalized its more than a hookup, he wants to stay the night etc and cuddle sessions. Boyfriend just wants a fuck ready daddy.
I joined boyfriend in a threesome with a guy. I joined in a session watching him breed and pound the shit out of a hung bottom. He hooked up with this guy pre diagnosis as well. It is interesting that this bottom since their last hook up before diagnosis has also now become infected.
That is in itself a whole new blog entry but….How hot is it to watch to poz men just go at it no holds bar. more to come…
I have confessed to boyfriend I have had a few hookups on the side. One I video tapped and showed him, the other I told him about because he knew I had been with this guy before in our old apartment. The guy I had videotaped is……well I think I want to make a whole complete blog about it in detail. I want to watch the video with headphones on so I can dictate every single detail for you sluts who read this shit to get off.
As for the guy I have been with a few times. He is just some middle aged, short, bottom slut. He walks in, gets undressed, gets on all fours ass spread and lubed up, I then enter the bedroom from the bathroom and walk up, kick his legs apart and slide my raw cock into his hole as I feed him poppers. I breed him, step away, blow my load on his hole then push it back in then kick him out.
Thats all it is, just a hole to blow in.
Now….Why do I breed? I don’t know. I just like the wet warm feeling wrapped around my shaft and feeling my seed spew all over and plaster a willing mans asshole.
With that being said I was fearful once I had contracted “it”. More so It was just a bad cold…A man cold of course…The side effect of being an anxious person who’s boyfriend has HIV its always on my mind.
If I keep this up at some point it could be inevitable that I could contract it if I keep fucking guys raw. That would make me very sad and my boyfriend angry. I mean I will breed guys who I don’t know their status but I won’t fuck him. A guy who knows his status will still breed him but I won’t.?!?!! I am sure that can add to the mental confusion to it all.
I have more luck with men on Craigslist then I do on Manhunt, Squirt and Grindr. Those sites are boring and for the masses. Everyone thinks they know someone or someone knows someone who has fucked so and so….I don’t have time for that. The men on craigslist are more intense. Discrete and it helps keep the distance.
I will admit the daddy that the boyfriend was fucking around with who almost slide his raw shaft deep into his tight eager hole was a man from Manhunt who I have always wanted to service but I am not his type. So it is nice to live vicariously through boyfriend. Watching the both of them getting what they want from the hookup. Meanwhile I am still getting what I want. I love to watch men fuck….The sounds, the smell the dim lights bouncing off the muscle, the ass….I love the smell of poppers and sweaty ass fill the room.
Here I am. sitting in the coffee shop waiting to watch my numbers climb as all you pig sluts want more. Feel free to email me, chat me or share what you want to hear from me.
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