Poz on Poz. Birthday Cock…

Here I sit at a coffee shop on a grey day awaiting my daily dose of coffee. The PozPig is with me today. It is his birthday weekend. I have taken 4.5 days off to be with him. We have both worked so hard this last year we have not had many opportunities to connect.

I have mixed feelings about these 4 days ahead of us. Wondering what they will bring and if I will be disappointed when it is all said and done. I want to be a pig and fuck all weekend.  I want to whore his ass out and see him fill his boy hole with as many loads as he can take.

We had some hot one sided oral sex the two nights ago. Quick simple, cock sucking, ball sucking and ass eating as he spewed his toxic load all over my chest. I had no opportunity to blow as it was sort of in the cards that it was all about him. We had not had sex together in well over 3 weeks and he has been in a slump so to speak.

He has had sex, we have not. It has become a bit intolerable and bothersome that he has been fucking other dudes as I sit in the closet and beat off watching as he has his fill.

He has had many guys this summer come over to the loft. Some Bareback, Some with condoms, some just oral. Some were Poz dudes, some said they were neg and I am sure perhaps some never knew their status.

He has had some remarkable men and boys. Some were smooth fit muscle studs that just wanted a hole to fill. One man was a hot, shaved head, muscle mature man, mid forties, with a hung man meat. He was POZ. My boyfriend has always wanted to hookup with him but nothing ever came of it. We never knew he was poz before the night he first came over.

Over the last few years prior to his HIV infection we had been on a few sites, manhunt, squirt, grindr, etc…We have seen this dude on the sites. HE tried to message him and wink at him but to no success. Boyfriend always felt he was out of his league. It was within the last year the boyfriend said that this dude was on his wishlist. A fantasy. He is handsome. Scruff, manly. Beautiful face.

I was on squirt.org on my bf’s account and this guy messaged. He wanted to fuck. So i kept the conversation going. I got a picture off of him and realized it was the same pic that I had seen on BBRT and that guy was poz. So I yelled across the loft for Bf to come to me and look at my discovery.

It is interesting that after all these years that as it turns out his fantasy fuck is Poz and now more than ever on the to do list and a real possibility to take raw man cock again. Maybe this is why this dude has never given boyfriend the attention he wanted because he knew he was poz and never really felt it a possibility that he could fuck a negative boy. After a conversation and self disclosure and asking him a couple of times to reassure him if he was good to fuck raw he said he would come over.

The boyfriend was in shock. He could not believe after all this time he was going to fuck a man he has always wanted to service. He got in the bathroom, douched, bathed, trimmed and waited! I quiver just writing about it.

Within 90mins he was over to the loft and balls deep in boyfriend, making him a dirty little cum slut. HE rammed, plowed, and tortured the boyfriends hole. I have never ever heard him cry for mercy as he took hung cock. This man seemed to be given the forbidden fruit. How many men has this Poz dude been with, has he too lived a sheltered sex life because many men won’t fuck a Poz dude in our tiny homophobic, aids ignorant society we live in. He acted like he hasn’t BB a willing hole in a long time.

My boyfriend loved it. He sucked, he worshipped, he was put into every position I could imagine by this Poz man. He wanted his hole. I was watching silently beating off in the closet across from the bed unknowingly witnessing true pig fucking. When the man wasn’t fucking him the boyfriend cleaned off the freshly ass juiced man meat and re lubed it with his spit  polishing it off and then bending over and taking it again.

The room smelled like stench. Pure man on man stench. Poppers lingered in the air, ass juice flowing, spit everywhere, ass juice all over the fuck blanket. Lube all over their bodies. The Poz dude pulled the bf’s body in any direction he wanted. He was rough on him. One position he turned him into a pretzel and heaved his shaft down his shit chute. He started to moan, scream and moaned” I’m cumin” he unloaded in his hole and kept pumping his dirty seed down his hole. The boyfriend was shivering and glistening with a well deserved sweat. The collapsed onto the bed and made small chat.

To cut to the chase, the Poz Man who is the quentential gay man. Handsome, fit, bald shaved head, beard. He sort of looked like the porn star, ” Drew Sebastian” He is fucking hot. Needless to say, this local Porn Star came over 2 more times. They have been chatting a bit on text messaging.

I am a bit jealous. He is everything I am not. He gives the boyfriend I am unable to give him. Over and over again. Even though the Poz man disclosed to the bf the bf has yet to disclose to him his status. I am unsure if he ever will.

I do get something from it as well. I fulfill my inner whore voyeuristic eye. But the side effects are ye to be determined.

The boyfriend is now in a slump. Not in the mood. Not wanting to hookup with other guys nor me.  I am unsure of his intentions or reasoning for it. It has happened before pre and post hiv.

Nothing to worry about I tell myself. But I am an anxious person anyway so who knows.

As much as I want to who him out if he is not willing it is a fruitless cause.

My fantasy is for me to stay online all day and invite guys over and walk into the bedroom and find him on all fours, seed him, have him suck them and leave..Then once the sun sets take him to the bathhouse and have him take as many cocks as he can take in the dark room. All for the sake of cock.  All for my selfish reasons.

With all this being said. What is it about me? Why is it at times when I want him to take a strangers cock and load I get all worked up with anticipation. However when it is early in the day and I jerk off to porn on different sites or even to the boyfriends homemade video of the Poz dude breeding him once I blow I feel guilt and don’t want him to be with anyone else and feel satisfied. Yet a few hours later I am wanting it again.

I want the boyfriend to feel special and remember the birthday we spent together but would it be tainted if he took another mans load other than mine?

This morning when we woke up he was in the bathroom for some time as I was adjusting to the morning light coming through the curtains. Awaiting his return to I could take my turn in the washroom, refreshing my mouth and wash my cock. The boyfriend returned and then I had my turn.

We kissed, we fondled, I went for his ass as he whispered,” careful it may be dirty.” I replied,” I thought you washed it” He said, “I did but be careful”

So I went for it. He had a faint faint smell of a shit but he was clean. I made him moan as i ate his ass and taint. It was refreshing to make a man moan. My man. I felt comfortable and secure. I then crawled up onto all fours and rubbed my shaft against his hole with random pokes. My head pressing against his spit lathered quivering hole. He was intense in his moans and grunts. His inner slut bottom wanted it. He forgot his status and didn’t care my knob was poking him. My juicy knob every few thrusts penetrated his hole. He made no excuse and accepted my cock. I wanted to breed him. I wanted him to take my load. Other negative men have fucked him, knowingly full well his status and others not. He has accepted others cocks but he has never wanted me to breed him. What was I to do.

I stopped and got up beside him laying side by side and cocks pressed against each other. I then instructed him to clean my cock off. I muttered,” I like dirty ass and you like dirty cock so clean it off” It was a figure of speech. MY cock had no shit on it. Just ass juice.

We cuddled a bit and then we got out of bed. No load. No orgasm. Just left it at that.

I sort of used him to excite him. I wanted his hole to want more. I planted the seed that he could take big cock today. TO fill his hole. TO want seed. TO take raw cock. POZ cock.  I told him ,” it is your birthday weekend, you deserve what your hole desires!”

 

Poz’itivity Down the Hatch…

The other day I was at work and I was getting very horny. I started to think how much cock my poz boyfriend has been getting and was thinking,” if they can suck his cock, why can’t i?”

So I texted my boyfriend and said, get home as soon as you can and I will be home by 5:20pm. I got home before him and stripped down and climbed into bed with a ragging hard on.

I tried to pretend I was sleeping when he found me in bed and I listened as he stripped off. He climbed into bed and started to kiss my neck and rub his hard cock into my crotch. I turned around and got close enough that our cocks were rubbing and grinding as we made out.

I asked if I could suck his cock and then threw the covers down and asked him to take an active role. He got up on his knees and told me,” suck my dick!” He was very assertive and began to fuck my  throat with vigour and passion.

HE fucked my mouth any way he wanted. He was verbal, moaned and sighed as I swallowed his thick cock.

I started to taste and feel the precum oozing out of his cock and lingering around his foreskin. It began to create a bit of anxiety for me and I paused and told him I could taste it and then he came down to kiss me and take it from my mouth.

He then stuck his thumb down my throat and opened my mouth more. He feed me his shaft and told me to keep sucking.

I sucked and sucked his meat until his hips were pumping my forehead. I had to brace myself with a pillow. HE then too a breather and asked if we wanted to jerk off. He knew I didn’t want him to blow in my mouth so it was a natural ending.

We laid back, grabbed our cocks and beat them ferociously until he blew first then He leaned over and started to moan and whisper in my ear and I blew all over me and his side.

He went to clean up and I shortly joined him in the washroom. I said I was a bit anxious about having that much precum in my mouth. I shared with him my thoughts. I said I understood the science and all but it was still so new to us and me. I said I wasn’t expecting anything from him but an open ear and mind.

I think. If he can have  a guy come over, who knows his status, still fucks him bareback and is fine with it because he said he knew the risks….Then why can’t I just take a little cock down my throat.